Friday, June 3, 2011

When Your Heart Is Not In It

"The quieter you become, the more you can hear."  ~ Ram Das

I have spent a lot of time this week being quiet.  Not always on purpose, but for most of the week, it has just worked out that way.  Because of this, I came to realize just how much time I spend "doing" and how much time a do not give to "being", you know, doing things just to be doing because I feel I "have to" rather than doing things because they are my calling, enhancing mybeingness.

In the quiet you can, as Ram Das suggests above, hear so much more.  I have been hearing that small voice inside my head asking "Why are you doing this?"  more and more often of late.  So I have stop and ask myself, "Why am I doing this or that?"  Now I not talking about this blog.  It is something I truly enjoy.  (Hope you do too).  But what about all the other stuff I do?  I find myself reflecting on whether my heart is really in it and if not, why am I doing it?

I have learned in the past that some things we do are in order to avoid doing other things we should or are afraid to do.  These are things like going to the fridge and/or cupboard and looking for comfort, or going to Costco when you really don't need anything.  Or maybe it is saying yes to something you would really rather say no to because you are afraid people will stop asking entirely and you will be left behind.  Now there is a lesson in all that which I have to keep learning over and over for some reason.

I know I want to write.  I want to create writings of inspiration and whimsy, wisdom and observation.  I want to do this not only in my writings, but in all my environment and in my life.  I have a friend who I jokingly tell that fun is not something I like.  Of course that is a lie.  How can anyone not like fun?  To me, these creative activities would and are fun!


So I guess it is all a matter of listening to the heart.  Your heart knows the truth of you.  It tells you in many ways whether you are being true to yourself and your true purpose in life.  Figuring out that purpose may not be easy, but, if you are quiet and listen, you can hear it being more clearly defined in your heart of hearts.  When your heart is not in something you do, you know it.  And, believe it or not, those around you at least sense it too.

So if you notice me being quiet, I am not being rude or aloof.  If I am with you, it is because I want to be with you.  The relective pose may be because I am hearing the voice within.  And if I say no to something, do not be offended.  And on the same note, if I say yes to something, know that it is because my heart is in it.  The heart knows and the mind must be stilled to hear what the heart is saying.  And my your heart be in all that you do.

Life Put Your Heart Into It Stained Glass by Mary Engelbreit

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